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| View from Mama's bedroom window. |
The children did a little school and then played outside in the snow. Thomas and I napped!
Dinner was late (a norm in the de Niall household) but amazing. I tried my hand at red curry chicken for the first time. Everyone enjoyed it but it was a bit spicy for some. I didn't even notice the spice, I love spicy food.
After dinner I started to get cramping. I know cramping is normal during pregnancy but every time I feel something that could lead to the loss of my baby I get worried.
It is not a fear that I let go out of control. I must say that in the end I know God is in control. I can not let the cramping take over my life. Understand me when I say I will not let it take over my life. I am not saying that my feelings are not real or that I shouldn't have these feelings. I believe that all feelings are legitimate after a loss. All worries are okay. If you have these feelings of worry and concern and they don't go away it is okay. I am a women of faith and I trust in the Lord. This is what keeps me going.
Another thing that keeps me going these days are down days. I never used to like or even want down days. Having me children hang out with me lounging is a comfort to me. Snowy days lead to lounging. I don't know how many more of these days we will have but I am going to take what we get.
Lord I have no control over this pregnancy. my feelings or my worries. I only have control over my trust in you, continue to help me. My baby Saint Peter I ask that you intercede on my behalf, for daddy and for your siblings. Ask our Lord to help us all to be joyful during the next 6 months and except His will. We love you and you are a comfort to your Mama.
I am not sure how many more snow days we are going to have here in New England but I am looking forward to a few more. I may be the only person who gets excited to be forced to stay home and just be but as far as I'm concerned....LET IT SNOW.
Let it snow a few more times. :)
