On Thursday I said I would explain why I hate doctors!
The long and the short to "why I hate doctors" is ME! I am very defensive (pride).
I don't like to take the easy route (medicine) although I truly know sometimes it is necessary. I am a diet controlled diabetic but sometimes my diet is not so controlled (true confessions). I don't always take my blood sugars so sometimes I am truly ignorant. There are times when I should be on medication but I try so hard to keep my blood sugars down. Sometimes I am super successful and other times I am very unsuccessful.
If I had a doctor that was closer to my home and I liked I would go more often. When I have to answer to a doctor I am more likely to be compliant. I love my doctor but he is just soooooo far away and to be even more honest I was just hard to go back to him after Peter died. Tasks that were not so overwhelming in the past became overwhelming. I know I know I need to either find a new doctor or a local endocrinologist. Happily I did just found an endocrinologist.
My two doctors appointment in two days basically told me three things. One I am old, my blood sugars (because of pregnancy hormones) have been high, and I am at risk of having a baby with birth defects. I sadly was started insulin on Friday. The other two things I was told I have NO control over.
What was my first response when I was told I was of advance maternal age? Well I laughed (to myself)! I was never told that when I was pregnant with Peter because I had a home birth midwife. My doctor did try to comfort me by saying she was eight years younger when she had her last baby, not a comfort. Thanks for trying!
I am seriously thankful for my doctors. I know they are only saying and doing what have know. I often times react poorly and I am trying to work on responding Christianly.
Please pray we have a healthy baby but God's will be done. Secondly please pray that I find a good labor and delivery doctor. My labor and delivery doctor is only interim until I find a permanent doctor. I am looking for a good doctor/hospital that will be able to meet my needs. I have, I believe, come to the conclusion that I will have a cesarean with this baby. I would like to find a doctor/hospital that will allow me to have a family centered cesarean.
What does that mean? Well for me that means I can have more than just my husband in my surgery room (my support help and someone to take picture), pictures are allowed, the doctors won't be talking about their tennis/golf game while working on me and most importantly when baby Niall #5 is born he/she will be brought to Mama for skin-to-skin contact and to nurse right away! I am not sure how difficult of a task this will be but it is daunting to think about. Now that I have found an endocrinologist I will start working to find a new labor and deliver doctor.
Thank you for your prayers and know I am praying for you. God Bless.