Last week, after writing the blog post Two Doctors in 2 Days, someone told me that Newton/Wellesley Hospital is one of the best in state for preforming cesareans. That is when I decided to I looked up a doctor I used to delivery James. I will say one of her down falls is she is the doctor that pretty much forced me into having a cesarean with James. That story is here. Up until that point I had a lot respect for her but I did not trust her. I did not trust any doctor/midwives. I trusted my body.
I still believe I was rushed into surgery for no reason. I don't think that she sees it my way but at this point having a cesarean is now my path so it doesn't matter. I think she did what she felt was the best thing for me. We had other battles because I am head strong and didn't want interventions or another caesarean. In hind sight I do trust her because I believe she was doing what she felt was best for me and baby. I will do what ever she asks of me in light of what happened with Peter. This time I will be totally compliant. I am not fighting anymore. All I want in the end is a baby in my arms.
Why my dilemma? Well once I decided on my doctor I had a few people tell my about a Catholic doctor in Boston. I called her and although she was nice the hospital and I suspect her policy for baby care after birth don't make me happy. The is not the same with Doctor A. I agree with their hospital policy and it is exactly what I was looking for.
I want a healthy baby to be brought right to me. I remember not being able to hold Thomas, at a different hospital, for what felt like forever. I can't image that happening again. I want baby with me as soon as possible. Doctor A was also really good at surgery and she was very respectful while preforming the surgery not talking about anything other than the task at hand.
That was my deciding factor. I would like to go to a doctor who is Catholic but my doctors from Newton/Wellesley were always respectful to my believes that was never our issue. My doctor was tough on me and made tough chooses I didn't like. I think this is important. She has proven herself to me.
When I talked to Michael about my dilemma he said he thinks I will be happier with Doctor A. My husband knows me best so I may not always trust my own judgment but I definitely trust my husbands.
If things don't work with Doctor A we can always call Doctor B.
Please continue to pray for me as I am praying for you!